So, it struck me last week that while I feel that I’ve moved through some parts of the grief of losing my mom, there are other ways where I still feel really present in that sadness and still trying to find a new normal. I know that grief has no timeline (and is a sneaky little son of a gun) but when you are living it, you don’t always observe it and so it was interesting to really have this moment of NOTICING it last week.
One of the ways that I have seen my grief impact me is in my creativity. I have not been able to easily create from scratch (total blank page in front of me, just go) since losing my mom. From scratch just isn’t my repertoire right now. It takes a lot more of the upfront creative process—note card brainstorming, starting and stopping, looking up something I’ve written before and turning it on its side—for me to create these days. Out of thin air isn’t accessible to me right now. Which is totally fine, I love the creative process and am always studying it in general and my own in particular so I’m not panicked; just curious. I think what I am seeing is that I just don’t have words yet; my words are so lost in my grief, in my sadness, in the unbelievableness of it all. And you have to believe something to have words, to write them, I think.
This creative middle way will be especially interesting to observe in a few weeks when I head to the mountains for a week-long solo writer’s retreat (without internet or cell service!) in a little tiny cabin in the woods (it has been a longtime dream of mine to go on a writer’s retreat and I finally feel like Happy is old enough for me to be gone for that amount of time so I dared myself to apply to one and was blessed with being chosen for it). I have three different project ideas that I am toying with (a novel that I started years ago that is waiting for its ending, a new non-fiction book about purpose, and/ or a collection of personal essays) so I think that I’ll just see which one speaks to me the most that week, allows me to squeeze the most out of it for the time we have and resolve to let that week be the balm to my creative soul as opposed to a productive boon. I think I will be doing a whole lot of what Anne Lamott advises, writing a bunch of shitty first drafts.
Though, I am just kicking the dust off of my writing mind, I am excited to share with you some other work that I have been doing. This week, I am sharing one opportunity for you to get a self-acceptance booster shot from me via a tele-summit while I turn my attention to the written from. Next week, I’ll be sharing another podcast that I recently did on self-acceptance that you can tune into anytime you want (or even read as there’s a transcript!).
Stop the Self-Defeat.
A few weeks ago, I was invited to be a part of The Love Your Body Type Summit which is being hosted by Tasha Norman and will feature 15 women experts who are going to share their stories and their biggest tips for loving yourself, NOW, no matter what anyone else says or thinks!
You’re invited to join us, at no cost, starting April 27 for “The Love Your Body Type Summit.”
Sign up here:
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Tasha has designed this summit with the curves in mind, but I bet this will be the type of experience that is good for anyone who struggles with loving themselves, no matter how they would label their body.
It’s all about being confident with where you are now. It’s all about loving yourself.
Tasha has invited more than a dozen experts to join this summit and we’re sharing our best tips, wisdom and immediate action steps designed to empower you and to help you overcome self-defeat.
You will learn how to:
- Reverse negative self-talk, immediately, whenever it starts.
- Maintain confidence even if someone shuns you because of your curvy body type.
- Feel loveable even when you feel undesired or unhappy because of your curves.
- And more.
As a curvy woman and fitness professional, Tasha created this summit because she has felt uncomfortable in dance classes and fitness classes. This summit brings together women who have reached different milestones on their journeys. Some have overcome the pain and found outstanding success. Others are still on the journey to self-empowerment, and are experiencing success while bearing scars.
When you join us for “The Love Your Body Type Summit,” you will hear stories of recovery, joy and self-acceptance.
It is my privilege to share with you that it is possible to feel fit, fierce, and confident, starting right now.
Imagine being part of a unified movement that inspires women to feel great about their bodies!
This is your opportunity. Sign up to join us, at no cost, here:
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And, of course, please feel free to share this opportunity with your friends.
